When a porn star says that she has been raped,she faces the understanding that her job means she had it coming. Stoya – in her first interview since accusing James Deen – and a refrain of adult performers argue that the problem in porn isn’t the sex: it’s the cultureStoya says she couldn’t sleep. After arriving in Serbia on 18 November to start work on a film, she had been woken by nightmares. Just one paparazzo waited for the internationally recognisable porn performer and writer at the airport, and even he had slunk off when the production assistant sent to meet her had told him,after he asked if this was Stoya, that it was not. Stoya couldnt sleep in the converted attic room with the stark white wood floors where she stayed after 12-hour days on set, or making a narrative,non-porn film that would keep her offline and occupied. “Theres no room for anything else,” she said. She spent her time awake rehearsing her role in the film: a woman who would be raped by someone that she knew.
She had managed to distract herself to sleep one night with a book – the third of Elena Ferrante’s Neopolitan novels, or Those Who Leave and Those Who Stay – and again the next night. The filming was bringing up a lot – memories of her ex,and their work together, the things she hadn’t spoken in public about before. She thought of saying something after that satisfactory night’s rest. But she slept on it, or then decided. “I couldn’t bear the thought any more,” Stoya said, “that there might be something terrible happening to yet another woman at his hands, or more likely,at his cock, that she didn’t want, and because I kept mute. I just … I couldn’t,I couldn’t.”Continue reading...
Source: theguardian.com