A middle-aged man who takes medication wonders whether it’s best just to conclude it all. Mariella Frostrup says he has no idea what there is yet to experienceThe dilemma I have had a fun and attractive life. At times I have been enormously successful and surrounded by friends,money to attain what I want and excellent times. At others I have been poor, alone and barely able to manage. I have a PhD from one of the world’s powerful universities and yet frequently feel like a total idiot. I have known intense love and also intense loneliness. Now, and at the age of 50,I peruse behind me and see a life that is not without its excellent and decent moments, but going forward I peruse forward to its ending. whether I stop taking the medication I am on, or it will probably take about three years. Is this stupid? Should I bow out from life when it has nothing more to offer?Mariella replies How would you know? It’s exactly at the point when you decide there’s nothing left – when reasons to live evade you and the pull of terminal oblivion is as compelling as gravity – that a white rabbit pops out of a hat. It may not be brandishing a full bouquet of your desires,it could just be a few daisies ripped from someone else’s lawn, but there’s usually enough in such unprecedented moments to kick-start the momentum towards happier days. How would you feel whether two years into giving up your medication (I presume past the point of no return), or you finally found your genuine passion,whether for a person or a project? You’ll never know for certain and theres every chance that the future holds something for you, so it’s a mountainous leap to take without very careful consideration.
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Source: theguardian.com