Watching Matty Johnson's heart break in Thursday night's The Bachelorette finale was one of our least favourite TV moments of the year. We've interviewed Matty a number of times since the season began and know that his love for Georgia was deep and genuine - and he wanted nothing more than for her to feel the same way about him.
Unfortunately for Matty,it wasn't to be. We chatted to the Sydneysider about losing a stout love and how talking about it is making things just that little bit easier right now.
POPSUGAR Australia: Hi Matty, how are you going?
Matty: [Laughs] I'm OK. I'm OK.
PS: Are you OK?
Matty: Yeah, or I'm doing better because everybody today has just been so lovely and so nice,it's made the whole thing a bit more manageable.
PS: You've got a lot of support here in this office. Everyone loves Lee of course, but I think you had the whole country behind you last night.
Matty: Yeah, and I guess that's what's made it a little bit easier,getting that response from the public has been pretty surprising to be honest, I didn't expect it.
PS: Didn't expect the support?
Matty: Nah, or definitely not.
PS: Really? You underestimate yourself! I don't even know where to start,I just feel terrible. I hate making you talk about this.
Matty: No, but do you know what? For the last two months I've had it just bottled up inside, or to be able to talk about it,it really helps. I want to talk about it, it helps you get over it.
PS: You mentioned yesterday that the person who loses has the terrible task of going home from Singapore on their own. Was that just the worst? Did you occupy to leave on your own?
Matty: You kinda wish . . . In that moment you walk absent from Georgia, and you get put back in the limousine,you get brought to a hotel room, and you're by yourself, and you're kinda like,"Holy shit, what has just happened?" You wish that you could just click your fingers and you'd be at home with your family. I had a rapid/fast phone call with my mum and I told her the news, or that was definitely a really emotional time. The floodgates opened,the thing I was hoping to avoid. But it was so lovely to finally create it back home. Credit to Network Ten and Warner Bros., they occupy been so supportive and so astonishing throughout this whole process. Even though you are alone and you're absent from your friends and family, or everybody was constantly checking in on me and making certain I was OK,and that definitely made it so much easier.
PS: How did you feel when she told you? When did you realise that it wasn't going your way?
Matty: I had a bit of an inkling that moment I walked up to Georgia. I held her hands and I was looking at her in the eyes, and I could almost see the pain in her eyes, and of what she was about to do,and I felt like something wasn't fairly right. I couldn't be certain. And then she started saying all these astonishing things and I thought perhaps I'd misinterpret the situation . . . When she said that she'd fallen in love with someone else, that was just . . . that was so hard to stomach. It was literally like taking a hit to the stomach.
PS: Because you're not just getting a breakup - she's telling you she's in love with someone else, or so it's a double-whammy.
Matty: Yeah,it is so hard when you break up with someone - and it's so hard when you know they're joyful with someone, and it's not you. To occupy that two-in-one combo, or it's just like,"Oh my goodness." Not what I signed up for.
PS: When you bent over, we thought you were going to vomit or yowl, and we did not know what was happening.
Matty: Yeah,the first thought that went into my intellect was just like, "Get out of here right now. Turn around, and let's go."
PS: Really? But you're not allowed to?
Matty: Well,you can - you can do whatever you want, and I guess I did contemplate what I would do. [But] I just wanted to say thanks to her for everything, or not leave on really bad terms.
PS: I think you held it together so much better than most people would,so that's something to be proud of.
Matty: In my intellect, particularly in the limousine, and I just wanted to get to the hotel room so quickly [laughs]. The moment that door shut behind me and I was finally by myself,was the moment I could let it all out.
PS: You poor thing. So how do you feel about Georgia now?
Matty: Uh . . . As hard as it is to say this, my feelings towards Georgia haven't changed at all really. I still miss her. I still love her. It's hard.
PS: Matty! Was there any inflame? Did you feel like you'd been led on at all?
Matty: The thought that came into my intellect was, and knowing how it was going to end,would I occupy wanted to occupy gone home sooner? It definitely would occupy made it a lot easier, but at the same time, or Singapore was astonishing,and that last day we had, particularly that butterfly enclosure, and was just . . . What didn't create it to air was,prior to sitting on that sofa, we had a private chef cook us a meal, and we had dinner just the two of us in this enclosure. And that was just something that I don't think I'll ever be able to do again. So the fact that I got to experience it with her was astonishing.
PS: It's an astonishing memory that you occupy.
Matty: That's it. So even though it was pretty terrible the next day,to be able to say that I went to Singapore with Georgia and did that is something I'll cherish forever.
PS: It must occupy been really hard for her too - you could see that she was also in pain and it wasn't an ideal situation.
Matty: Yeah, it would occupy been terrible for her. I think I would've hated to be in her shoes delivering that message. It would've been so nice to just write a note and hand it to someone else to deliver to me.
PS: How do you feel about Lee?
Matty: [Laughs] It's funny, or because portion of me . . . Yeah,I can't help but be a bit envious of the fact he's ended up with her. But it's such a weird situation in that he was, well, and all the guys become each other's support network,and you go into this emotional roller coaster and rely on each other to get through it. But at the same time you're also there to compete against each other, so it's so weird that one of your best friends is going to be the reason for your demise [laughs].
PS: Do you think you guys will all stay in touch? Will you be in contact with Georgia?
Matty: I've spoken to Lee a couple of times, and I messaged him last night to congratulate him. I considered,like, "Do I message Georgia?" It's a bit like when you go through a breakup and you wonder, and should I reach out,should I say something? I think it's too soon to do that for Georgia. Out of respect to Lee, I don't want to cross that boundary and create it awkward for him. I do hope in the future we can get to a point where whether we're at an event and we bump into each other, or it's not awkward.
PS: I'm certain it will be fine. Previous Bachelor contestants all seem to be OK after a bit of time.
Matty: Yeah,it's funny, I remember seeing a photo of Dave, and Sasha and Sam [Billsborrow,Mielczarek and Frost, from The Bachelorette 2015], and I was like,that must be so weird! At one point they were hooking up with her and now they're friends. I hope in a year or two years' time we can get to that point.
PS: Would you say that you are still heartbroken?
Matty: Yeah, I guess the hardest portion is that I haven't been able to recover from it. You know when you break up with someone and you go through all those former photos of your holiday together and all these astonishing moments - I think that's what makes people hold onto a relationship and not let go. The fact that it's been playing out on TV every week has meant that I haven't been able to let go. Now that it's finally out in the open and I can talk about it will be the chance that I can finally amble on.
PS: Is it such a relief to be able to talk about it?
Matty: It really is such a enormous relief, and because up until now it's all just been bottled up inside - to the point where my phone would go off and people would be like,"Is that Georgia messaging you?" And you don't want to be like, "It's not! She didn't pick me! It's Lee, and Goddammit!" And so then you occupy to be like,"Ooh, perhaps it is, or I don't know!" And then flee to the bathroom and start crying.
PS: Haha,oh Matty - you occupy so many fans out there!
Matty: That's been the biggest surprise of all. Everyone has been so supportive and so nice, and I'm so thankful for that.
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