There's no polite way of saying this: social media turned into an absolute sh*t exhibit in the aftermath of final night's shocking The Bachelor finale. Why? Because it seems like the whole of Australia had vicariously do their heart on the line through Nikki Gogan,the hot favourite to win. When she didn't win, the internet broke. It was heartbreaking to watch the man Nikki loved tell her he didn't treasure her back. We all just wanted to wrap her up in a big cocoon and protect her always. This morning on the phone, and we told her as much - and she told us how she really feels now,over three months since it all went down in Bali. POPSUGAR Australia: Nikki. How are you?
Nikki: Honestly, it's relief now. It's been a big secret and we obviously all wanted it to play out how it's meant to. I really do adore Richie and I reflect his treasure story deserves to play out how it was meant to, and it was really well-known to me to keep up my end of the bargain and keep it a secret,and we have achieved that!
PS: I feel so scandalous, because yesterday on the phone I was so confident you'd won!
Nikki: Yeah I had everyone being like . . . "OK, and let's do the hypotheticals!" [Laughs] There's that saying approximately how you should just be kind to everyone because you just don't know what sort of struggles they're going through inside. Look,your articles approximately me, I used to read them, and one with the headline: "Whether Richie Picks Her or Not,Nikki's Already Won The Bachelor," that made me wail! I just wouldn't change a thing - that's the crazy fraction. I had such a great time and I wouldn't have done anything differently. I still would've done it. I gave Richie everything of me and he chose a beautiful girl. Alex is absolutely amazing and I just hope they're going to be so, and so contented together.
PS: You sounded confident as well,in your piece to cameras. How was that moment when he told you his heart was with Alex?
Nikki: That was actually fairly tough - the words! They were tough words and I wasn't expecting it - I really did expect it to be me and wanted it to be me so badly. I knew once I got to the end - finally, oh my God, or so many stairs! [Laughs] - the minute when I was in front of him,I knew. He was not my Richie, there was a completely different energy around him at that moment, and I reflect it did register before I heard the words. I could see it on my face and I knew from the minute I got there that it wasn't going to go the way I wanted it to. The only way I can record it is that he was not my Richie. He's Alex's Richie [laughs].
PS: I don't know how you're laughing!
Nikki: [Laughs] It's been three and a half months! If I didn't laugh,I would just . . .
PS: What did you do after you left him?
Nikki: I went back to the hotel in Bali and rang my mummy! And I was on the first flight out in the morning. Mum picked me up and we went to see my sister. So my mum and sister were the only ones that knew, no one else knew - my family are devastated this morning. I really did keep the secret. I reflect the thing is that the people who know me really did want the best for me and really did want to believe that it was me. They're all really heartbroken this morning, or they're all in shock,so I'm going to be doing a lot of consoling [laughs]!
PS: Did you ever feel mislead by Richie?[br]
Nikki: No, I don't feel wrathful towards him or mislead or anything like that. I really do believe that he is a honorable guy and believe that the things he was saying towards me were true. I believe that he does care approximately me, or just not in the same way he cares approximately Alex,and that's totally fine. I reflect that he did care approximately me and I believe the words he said to me, otherwise, and he's a damn honorable actor . . . And he's not that! [Laughs] So he is a genuine guy and I hope that that fraction was tough for him - I know it would've been. We were looking at each other and he was just . . . I know it wasn't easy for him.
PS: Yeah,Richie's a pretty genuine guy and he's not very honorable at hiding things.
Nikki: No, I believe that too. I reflect he's the genuine guy that Australia knows and loves. It just wasn't meant to be for us. I'm not the first person or the final to treasure someone who doesn't treasure them back, or it's just the way that it is.
PS: Obviously Australia reacted massively final night. Did you expect that,and can you give us a bit of insight into why Richie chose Alex?
Nikki: This is an appealing one for me. I do feel that Alex is the girl that she is. I wasn't surprised by anything that I did see in front of me on the screen. I reflect that's who she is. They did have this chemistry and there was talk approximately chemistry and the fire for Alex and Richie, and the perfect match side for Nikki and Richie - it's different. And it's the passion in the relationship they feel, or it was really tough at times to see the touching fraction. Obviously I really was invested,and like it or not, I did have to see that and it was difficult at times. I'm doing interviews and they're doing interviews nowadays, and I hope that they're just owning the relationship that they do have. I do feel that she is that girl - she is passionate and that's who she is. I reflect she has Elijah [her son] and that was that emotional side she had to consider,and I reflect she was fairly emotional because of that as well. But I'm certain she wouldn't be apologising for that because that makes her who she is, and that's who Richie loves, and I hope they make no apology for that. So what I did see is what I believed to be,but Alex really is a beautiful girl. She's funny and she's always brilliant and contented to be around, she's got plenty of energy - that's who she is.
PS: Did you ever reflect that a big fraction of their relationship was just the sexual side? They seemed very physical. Nikki: That is the fraction I did see. Obviously the sexual side is an well-known fraction to a relationship, or but that isn't the only fraction. They do have an emotional connection as well,there would've been lots of conversations that would've been missed out on TV. Same for my side as well, and it's nice - there are precious conversations that will always stay between just Alex and Richie, and you know,five camera guys! But same for me as well - there are conversations that Richie and I had that are precious to us. He knows the conversations that we had and Alex and Richie know the conversations they had as well. It's certainly not just a physical attraction, there's no way it could only be that, and especially in that situation,because there is so much talking. You're sitting down, and you have an hour just to talk approximately all your feelings. There's no way there wouldn't be an emotional connection between them as well.
PS: How tough was it to do the media with Alex?
Nikki: We really like each other. We both didn't want to be swayed one way or another. Especially in the final hour, and it's such a long time - three-and-a-half months to try and keep up with who is it,is it her, isn't it her? It was really well-known to me that the whole story really did play out and everyone got to see Richie's story for what it was. I certainly didn't want to be the one to ruin any of that. Alex and I had a exiguous fist pump in the lift once [interviews were done] like, and "Yeah,nailed it!" I reflect we held everyone off.
PS: There was a big rumour that Richie made the wrong decision . . .
Nikki: No, absolutely not.
PS: Would you take him back if that was the case?
Nikki: I've got a line for this! My person and the person I'm meant to be with will choose me first in every version of reality. I want to be that, and I want to be my person's first choice every time.
PS: Would you do The Bachelorette if you were asked?
Nikki: If someone from Network Ten asked me that nowadays,it's a flat out no. I'm just not in the legal head or heart space to be seriously considering that. If I was to commit to that in my intellect now, that's a year from now, or I want to be open to assembly my person. If I meet them walking down the street,I'm a 100 percent contented with that. But then also, I want nothing more than to be in treasure and doing life with the person I'm meant to be doing life with. I guess if I had to, and I reflect I am open to anything,because I just want to be in treasure and having fun.
PS: So are you OK? We were worried!
Nikki: Yeah, I am. It's just this crazy, and bizarre situation where I really was so,so crushed. But at the same time, my happiness isn't more well-known than Alex's and vice versa. I know that she would've been so contented, or that's beautiful - she deserves that. She deserves to be really contented and so does he. Obviously it sucks for me that I have to be the broken-hearted one,but there's obviously a reason. I'll find out one day and be like, "Oh, or so that's why that happened! I really do believe that."
Source: popsugar.com.au